Wednesday, January 30, 2008
I saw a quote at Target the other night that totally sums up how I feel,"It's the little things that often bring us the most joy"
Lydia is my little thing. :)
Today's surgery went well. Dr. Raines reworked her trach stoma and placed it back in the correct place. The upper one will now close on it's own and we will do plastic surgery later to repair. She is now is a larger size trach tube in the right place so nights should be much better. She came out of the surgery and immediately asked to go to McDee's to get french fries. Dr. Raines showed me the scope pics of her vocal cords. They are beautiful! He's said he couldn't be more pleased at their condition. I could have told him as much, as she sings and never stops until we are all screaming for her to be quiet.
I'm about ready to drop as I didn't sleep much last night. We left for the hospital at 4:00am. I told Lyd we should go to bed but she says her bedtime is not until 10:30.I am pretty convinced she is an energy vampire.
Sunday, January 27, 2008
We are saddened by the passing of our beloved Prophet this evening! Although our hearts know he is so happy to be reunited with his dear wife. We will miss his guidance, humor, and the ways he so inspired us to be better people through the Lord's teachings. President Hinckley has been the prophet through my children's lives. We always felt that he truly loved us. Our world will be less light with his passing. Blessings and prayers for his family we are sending.
Last Autumn, I was choosing songs for our circle time and picked a great I Love Winter song. I refuse to sing it. No matter how cheery that flippin song is. I don't love winter or cold. I haven't found a new one yet. We are not sing anything in the mornings/afternoons for circle time.
When I was a teen, we had this pot belly wood stove for heat. That was it. We would stand in front until our fronts were toasty and then turn to get our freezing backsides warm and then continue the cycle until it was time for school each morning. One was never completely warm at one time. I was so grateful that PHS had heat! Maybe I just need to talk to a therapist and then I would love being cold....I doubt it.
I love heat so much! When I lived in the valley that first 110 degree day each year was like heaven. I'd walk out the door into the "oven" and just smile. I few years ago traveling through Vegas I called Michael from a pay phone and said it's got to be 116 here! He didn't believe me and sure enough when we passed a time/temp sign a few minutes later and I was right.
I am going to retreat to my bedroom,cover my self completely with blanket, enjoy some cocoa and get warm.
Friday, January 25, 2008
Thursday, January 24, 2008
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
Monday, January 21, 2008
Yesterday, I was putting Thayne down for a nap and reflecting on how my Quayde is turning 12 what that means and how fast my little ones are getting older; I was hit with the most powerful realization. I have had the perfect life!!!
With everything I have experienced, it's perfect.
What? Yes, absolutely perfect. I know from the outside looking in it might not look so perfect. Abuse, divorce, financial struggles, children that have disabilities etc... If Heavenly Father wants to give us spiritual beings the human experience, He has blessed me to have an amazing range of LIFE. An absolutely incredible range of experiences.
There is nothing more humbling than being on your knees at 2:00am praying that your little girl can make it through because you never take breathing for granted again as each day passes. Walking outside for the first time in weeks after being at the hospital and really seeing all the color that God has created. It is completely a WOW! Do you know how wonderful a simple bowl of plain brown rice can taste?
Struggling as a single mom then getting the privilege of completely being loved by a wonderful man. Having 3 kiddos in the NICU, getting to watch their healthy smiles for the first time.
Seeing the older girls growing up and experiencing for the first time...jobs, boys etc...
I am sure with my 5 kids, we are in for more wow experiences.
Someone at church mentioned that they were reading a book about joy in adversity and thought of me. I have been simply blessed to have a human experience.
I have learned that I am ALWAYS taken care of. It is a matter of trust and faith. Chocolate cake and rubber stamps have magically appeared at my doorstep in the past! God really does care about those type of things. I honestly feel happy most of the time.
After Thayne's birth was hard, I felt like I had failed him and failed to provide the experience I wanted for my husband, best friend and family. I wanted his birth to be a gift. Yesterday Lydia was talking about how she and Chaiya hid under the table and watched. It was not what I had planned and it took me 2 years to finally "get back to me" and be okay with the fact that pushing out a 12 lb kid was a triumph.
Last week when I was teaching a song to the children at church. Something I love to do. I caught this wave of Spirit as I was telling them about opening yourself up to God's will to be like Jesus. Is it easy ? No! Is it amazing ? You bet.
I have been reading a lot of post of my friends, and the people I play voyeur with. There seems to be a lot of fear out there, about recession, health etc... January is more than half over, it always goes so quickly, open yourself up. 2008 can be your best year. Even with all the things that you think are wrong everything is working for your good and I promise that you have the perfect life too!
Sunday, January 20, 2008
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
Monday, January 14, 2008
Lydia is breathing better today. She has had quite the "vacation" from school work. Lying in bed all day is no fun at all.
Maliea starts tomorrow as an assistant Pre-school teacher. She is very, very excited. Today she spent several hours at the zoo and came home to tell about their incredibly cool copy machine (it copies both sides at one time) that she got to know intimately.
Chaiya has finally finished a book that she has been reading forever on deaf culture and history. I am sure she is thrilled to be done with it.
Found out this morning there is a new baby on Michael's side! He will be able to visit and hold little Sadie tomorrow when he arrives in Ohio. I think that was great timing.
Off to make dinner for a little girl who wants to eat whatever with ketchup. I think she might be on the mend!
Sunday, January 13, 2008
Tonight we had a Priesthood Preview for Quayde. Oh how grateful I am to having a wonderful , loving husband to be a daddy to my boy!!! I just watched them tonight together sitting there and Michael giving Quayde tips on how to look interested in the talks. They truly love each other and I couldn't ask for more. We have such a happy home, God has really blessed these children with a great example of a good man in their lives. I love him so much!
Off to work on preparing school. The math gnomes are meeting King Equals tomorrow!
Friday, January 11, 2008
School group didn't come but the advantage is that the house is clean including the bathrooms!
So for our lazy day we watched a few of the sections of Planet Earth dvd set. Quayde threw up last night. He actually made it home from Kristi's prior to letting the corn dog he ate earlier in the day come back to haunt him. After that he was pretty good but just wanted to lie around with Lyd today and not work on his Citizenship of the Nation stuff. The corn dog did provide a good excuse not to do the boy scout camping in the snow thing tonight. I was really pleased with the fact he took the responsibility and called his scout master himself to explain that he wouldn't be attending. Quayde is growing up too fast but he really is an awesome boy!
Well, I am off to collapse, I mean snuggle and sleep well. Michael and I are planning our "1st" anniversary in Vegas for the end of February! Can't wait to get away.
Wednesday, January 9, 2008
Thayne didn't break anything today just pulled over the entire white shelf thing on top of me this afternoon. How nothing fell on Lydia is a miracle. Today I made paper snowflakes, played fairy SNAP, Dora Candyland, Chutes and Ladders, Disney Memory and colored fairy pictures, watched lots of Bewitched episodes on the computer and really need a break from all this play.
Monday, January 7, 2008
We started our day with watching the Planet Earth DVD on the Arctic and Antarctic. Ate banana muffins for breakfast. Quayde and I made the choice, after looking over his merit badge requirements, that scout stuff would need to be part of schooling. He started his Citizen of the Nation today. We are working on making a lapbook that will contain vital parts of the information he needs to learn. Quayde is also excited about making a video of touring a federal facility; to be revealed at a later date.
Kind of a snuggly day with the snow. Thayne didn't break anything today only spilled all the eggs that were to be lunch all over the floor. We had just enough left to make our broccoli frittata. As I was scrubbing and cleaning all the eggs up, I found a word half way under the cabinet , that is part of our magnetic poetry.....guess what the word was? FUN